l u n a r k i s s

As you know, I'm going to study IELTS tomorrow.
That's an important study to me. So must work hard, struggle and struggle to get the 6 marks or even above. To reach that goal of going abroad to England, or maybe I should say, Europe.
So I try to write my diaries in different ways, change my way of thinking and talking, to adapt to the style of European.

Sometime I thought it's really a cruel thing to leave one's motherland.And it's really stupid to give up my everything to catch the "6 marks".
But I have no other way.
Ain't no better way.

Someone said to me, I should do everything myself from then on, after the first second I left my home.
No relatives will be there to wait for helping you.
What you have is only yourself.
That is all I know.
The all.....is alone.
Nothing wonderful will happen.
Just give up my childish imaginations. Forget the cosy life I have had while being with my parents.
Uh... It seems like I feel too much pressure? No...I just want to persuade myself to try once more to work hard than ever before.
To a brighter future? As you always said.
Haha...
Maybe it is also a good way to run away from those disguesting memories...
Sounds like really good and fresh...

So...according to those thoughts...
What I need most is just hardworking and a school report card with 6 marks of IELTS.
And then I can run away.
By taking a big monster with a magical power of flying.
Far away from everything that now I know very well.
You can call it an escape.
But only I know... That's the only beautiful new life of my own.

So, 23 days off, from 8.2 to 8.24.
Then take the exam.
Wish myself have a good luck!